I used to blog, and then I didn't. But lately I have been wanting to start up again. So we'll see. I think I won't really tell anyone and just see what happens.
Lately there have been so many issues I have wanted to muse upon. Our country is going to hell in a hand-basket. In Texas they confiscate tampons at the state capital. In North Carolina they tried to outlaw nipples. In Wisconsin the police trample on the US Flag. Women are fast becoming non-entities in many states, even as gays are finally being allowed to be in love and get married. Its insane, absolutely insane. And an electronic-exhibitionist is trying to become mayor of New York City.
Then there's closer-to-home stuff. For the past few years I have been struggling to identify what I want to be when I grow up. And I have a son who is also dealing with that question, but in different ways than I am, and I just don't quite know where my parenting manual on that is. And I've been growing my hair out and don't want to cut it because I believe that next time I go short I will never go long again. And a friend's father just died and somehow it hit me really really hard even though he is not a close friend by any stretch of the imagination and I never met his dad, but I was filled with thoughts about what it will be like when it's my mom or dad.
Meanwhile one friend is sailing through cancer treatment while another struggles with a horrible divorce. I was asked to be a leader in a citizen group to promote a school referendum, and simultaneously withdrew from some of my volunteer roles in the public school system.
Every single day it's an effort to figure out what comes next. Not every minute of every day, but enough that I'm aware. There are good things, too - it's not all gloom and doom - I am loving Pinterest because some days I can just sit and red inspirational sayings and am lifted so high it's amazing! And I am so aware that I am growing and I am learning cool stuff and I am rediscovering my creativity and I am grateful, so very grateful, for the wonder in my life.
But some days I just want to rant, so I am going to do that here.
And we'll see where that takes me.
